I’ve been meaning to jump on here several times over the last several months, but I’ve been life-ing and every moment I do discipline myself enough to write, I try to focus on this novel I’ve been attempting to curate. Yes, I’ve hinted in many previous blogs of my writing “something” and the mysticism of that was purely because I had no idea what type of thing I wanted to write – novel, screenplay, etc. I had an idea, I’ve expanded on that idea, but never really knew how to start it. Until I did.
I wish I could say I have been quite disciplined and have given every spare moment to this work but that’s just not the case. I find ways of distracting myself, some REALLY great and creative forms of procrastinate, like reading a book on why creative people procrastinate. Don’t worry, I know what I have to do. “Just one line or 15 minutes a day or whatever”. Something small, so long as its consistent. Yes I know all the right things to do. I am just not there yet. Now I’m finally understanding the minds of people who do know the benefits of exercise and vitamins but don’t chose to practice that lifestyle because “they just aren’t there yet”. I suppose each and every one of our individual minds will pick and choose quite specifically what we decide to focus our energy on and for what may be easy for me to live by, may not be easy for others and visa versa.
Anyway, as I was saying before I got sidetracked. Good gosh, even in typing my own thoughts I get distracted…
So as a service to myself, every time I do sit down to write, I try to focus on this story. Its actually pretty easy for me to conjure up posts like this, in fact, it is actually very easy for me to conjure up words for this story I’m writing, but lo and behold, its getting to the laptop that becomes the hardest task. Kind of like how the gym becomes harder to get to after you get over that honeymoon phase but you know you always walk away feeling better than if you hadn’t gone at all and that’s what gets you through the doors. The hardest part is just opening the laptop.
It took a while to get into a groove with this whole novel business. I had a whole beginning started and then I decided to go a different direction with it and started all over again. Not that that completely matters anyway. I suppose its all part of the “journey.” And when I started this whole thing, I fully committed to this being a fun 10 year long ass journey I’ll have the pleasure of practicing, but with how fast the world has been moving lately, I do admit, there is this hovering cloud of angst over my head because of AI. All it will take is one dumb kid or random human halfway across the world to put this idea into Chat GPT and my original idea is gone forever. So as much as creativity and art shouldn’t be pressured by time, there is still that ticking time bomb in the back of my mind. In saying that though, its probably serving me more than anything at the moment seeing as my track record in actually writing this thing hasn’t been the best.
So that’s whats been happening with me, and of course about fifty other life things simultaneously. I guess this was my unofficial pledge to the universe to finally kick into that one sentence a day thing and get this thing ticked off my bucket list. And of course, it was a nice little stir away from putting actually my work in but hey, at least I got a sentence in before side tracking here. First post of this year and first in God knows how long, done.
Until next time…